Starting out in this blog thing. I hope that I can actually do this well. My husband is in the army and he is going to be deploying soon. It scares the living shit out of me honestly. I don't know why. Probably because nothing is certain in war and he might not be coming back. Though everyone tells me I have to be hopeful, honest and all of that. Everyone tells me I have to be positive. Well damnit I don't feel positive. I don't feel it in the least. I am supposed to rely on my religion.
A religion I haven't fallen back on in the longest time. I haven't actually gone to church. I feel the whole from it and miss it mind you, but at the same time I am worried that it will be infected by people. You see I understand why you need people around but at the same time to many people it brings it to a sense of over crowding and then conflict and drama happens.
I can't stand drama. Honestly it drives me nuts...I just want to get out and spend time with friends. I want to be popular with out all the drama that comes with conflicting personalities... Who knows. Maybe I will surprise people..Maybe they will surprise me..
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